i know i am not clueless as i had made up my mind before everything that seem the worse happen.. whether it is the past, my present or the future ahead of me..it is clear that above all and underneath everything that will always be my choice of my decision..the ultimate of my decision..hope for understanding from others...i do not want to hurt anybody..it never across in my mind ever... am i doing the right thing? am i being selfish?why do i feel like i am the bad person ever here at the moment now..... i really do not want to involve in this kind of situation for now.. i already have enough mess with my life and i am at ease with the way it are now...although with all the mess i am content with what i have..i mean this is my live..i loves my memories and it will always remain in me forever.. it is not that i do not care about others words..i do take view of it..but this is me..living in the hope and what i believes...if things does not happen what it seem to, i will take it on my part alone..that is the risk i have to bear for..if i will have to regret on what i had decide let it be regret of myself alone..i would never harm anyone for it....what most the people that i love..my family, friends and theirs who love me..GOD bless everyone who loves me...i am lucky to have them in my lives and their prays for me... but this is what i decide for the moment in my life.. i hope those who
loves me can except and understand it...thanks for willing to bear this with me..although i know some hearts might feel it hard to deal with this...but i really have to do this as my heart is only one..... for the one who holds the key of my world of everything..if the key really do happen to lost.......the little heart of mine maybe couldnt be open anymore as there is only one specify key for every heart of us rite...
i am writing this down as the other way of expressing what i feels and not intended to offend or harm anyone by it...only by writing i can let everything in me flow freely and truly me...as all of it is really from the depth me..that is why i like to write..i do not have to fake it as everything is real as it does...the experience and my journey of life is a reality when it is to be put in to words..i am relief when i write...its like i am in the other world of my own....hope the best for everything...for the better or worse this is what i had decided rite...i had taken the risk of it..the biggest risk ever in my life for the mean time.. so i will do live with it..."be strong gurl in facing all this"....[talking to myself]
loves me can except and understand it...thanks for willing to bear this with me..although i know some hearts might feel it hard to deal with this...but i really have to do this as my heart is only one..... for the one who holds the key of my world of everything..if the key really do happen to lost.......the little heart of mine maybe couldnt be open anymore as there is only one specify key for every heart of us rite...i am writing this down as the other way of expressing what i feels and not intended to offend or harm anyone by it...only by writing i can let everything in me flow freely and truly me...as all of it is really from the depth me..that is why i like to write..i do not have to fake it as everything is real as it does...the experience and my journey of life is a reality when it is to be put in to words..i am relief when i write...its like i am in the other world of my own....hope the best for everything...for the better or worse this is what i had decided rite...i had taken the risk of it..the biggest risk ever in my life for the mean time.. so i will do live with it..."be strong gurl in facing all this"....[talking to myself]
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