today, I have just received the exam result slip from UPSI.. it was a little bit of nervous I think..and some mixture of don’t know..maybe uncertainty..why? perhaps because the result we are having in the mean time is all through the sms only..so like not quite sure of the truthfulness of the information. but when madam came in to the class with one stack of kind of like the paycheck slip, that’s it..it must be our exam result slip for the first year first sem… everyone was so loud asking all kind of question here and there. than according to the name list of us went to received the so called 'enrollment' fro madam. all are glad as the result indeed are exactly the same as what we had received in the sms..
what makes me uneasy about the whole thing of the situation is that i am really taken aback when there is person who dosent seem to not believe with my result. maybe because i am not her favourite students so its like a sin when i get some kind of better result. its sad when things appear that way but when i think on it later on...who's care what she is thinking? its only her and not to others. others are happy with all the time we had together..so its just not worth it to be boiled over on that single dots of her as i have the whole world in front of me that i can proud of. i know that myself is afraid of being the best as i will always be rather satisfied to be the second best. dont know.. maybe i think its too much for me to carry the pro and bad of the so called the best.you know what i mean when we are the best among all its like others exception are higher than we are having before and its definitely a burden.
for me i dont want to do something just for the sake of doing it. i want it to be something. the impact. and it surely did for the mean time for sure..hehehhe..whatever la..dont care already as long as i got an A- for my literature...besh3.. anyway, thanks to her as what she said makes me more eager to excel and stand out in my next and forth examination.
that's my promise!!!
what makes me uneasy about the whole thing of the situation is that i am really taken aback when there is person who dosent seem to not believe with my result. maybe because i am not her favourite students so its like a sin when i get some kind of better result. its sad when things appear that way but when i think on it later on...who's care what she is thinking? its only her and not to others. others are happy with all the time we had together..so its just not worth it to be boiled over on that single dots of her as i have the whole world in front of me that i can proud of. i know that myself is afraid of being the best as i will always be rather satisfied to be the second best. dont know.. maybe i think its too much for me to carry the pro and bad of the so called the best.you know what i mean when we are the best among all its like others exception are higher than we are having before and its definitely a burden.
for me i dont want to do something just for the sake of doing it. i want it to be something. the impact. and it surely did for the mean time for sure..hehehhe..whatever la..dont care already as long as i got an A- for my literature...besh3.. anyway, thanks to her as what she said makes me more eager to excel and stand out in my next and forth examination.
that's my promise!!!
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