question me~~~

People.. near, far especially friends do ask me question that makes me think twice, and that is incredible as some of the questions do act as the wake up call for me when me myself sometimes are ignorant and unconscious of my surrounding and circumstances that is happening around me.

why that you don’t smile anymore nowadays? who had stole your smile?

this friends of mine is very concern as friends do notice that I am not as my usual self after quite sometime. its definitely feels good when there is still people that able to tell the difference of who you are after certain time of the holiday. I never thought that people will bother about me, as seen that I am not a friendly person in one of the phase of my life that I have decided on. I do not have any regret of that phase of memories except that content with what God had arranged for me at the time. but I still very thankful to have so many good friends around me. it do feels at ease and good when knowing that I have so many that love me when I am in pain. thanks friends.

why are you being so loyal?

for me it is not loyal but more to memories I guess. I am a person who hard to put away matters that once has been so near to me. some may says that I am stubborn, some might called me a fool or maybe hard headed but this is me and I don’t see why I must change it as it doesn’t harm anyone. it’s just me..

if u been given choices, do you think that you will convert?

this friend of mine is an outspoken yet sensitive. she always appear loud most of the time but still there is one little side of her that are sorrow. don’t get me wrong.. it might not be girl boy relationship.. I know what you guys out there are thinking… relationship is a wide subject that involves anyone and everyone that you wanted. religion and beliefs is a very abstract and sensitive to describe about. in my opinion, I strongly believe that whatever religion you are in, as long as your intention is genuine from the heart and true to life, it is more than enough. but, of course certain obligation from every religion is important as the faith in living life. the bottom line is that, for me whatever you do in life is based on your own intention. why are you doing it? if it is for best of all, the deed you are doing is a good course then and if it is a bad deed, might harm someone else and the most important is you yourself, it is a bad ne then. I believe every religion in this big world only ask for goodness and put away the badness for all living creature. the answer is that.. the future will tell everything..hehhhee

I don’t see why people like blogging as I don’t like exposing my own stories to public.

she is deal right as that is her own opinion. all of us have the right to put up their own statement so do one of my dearly friend here. as for me the reason why I like to blog is simple. it gives me the drive to write. and make me realize how do I love to write so much. it brings out the passion of writing in me. that’s all. exposing? naahh.. never thought at all. if I do sure I will announce it to the whole world. hheheh.. but if there is any other home sapiens that feels kind of commenting it is always welcome..

how can you still be in love until now? do you still in love now?

she is a girl that very near to heart with everyone around her. warm is the best to describe her.. her question really struck me as I know that myself has been avoiding this question and pretend that’s everything seems just fine. the truth hurts and the lies even worse.. hhmmm.. this one I really don’t know my friend.. it is all the work of the great God. He is the one created my heart this way, so what else can I say about it. sorry God if it seem like I am blaming on you.. it is the heart matter so the heart is the boss so I will just have to obey to what and how the heart want to feel like right?? hhehe.. whatever it is, I am happy this way, so be it..

why are you being stupid? he is just a moron. get up, be pretty and get a new one

this one is a naughty friend of mine. one the first impression of course people will judge her as a play girl. but I am as her friend who kind of know her…she is very compassionate and always stands by her friend no matters what. that is for sure. am I stupid friend? hhhehee.. no I don’t(mocking face).. I know and understand well that there is still whole load of people that I can socialize with rather than being miserable by myself. appreciate it and indeed I am the socialize girl at the moment already…hhhee..just kidding

I wont say what you are doing is useless as everything depends on yourself friend.

yup..that is a very true one my friend. one should be responsible for one’s decision. this one is a friend who will give you the advice that what you want to hear of. it is the natural her as that is the way how she console her friends. she is a mature young lady and will always be supportive with whatever her friends had decided.

are you crying of people that don’t know how to appreciate you?

this friend of mine appears cold as a person but she is quite the sensitive one.. its very hard for her to express herself but once she does, it was a massive one to all. she rarely gives advices specifically but rather voice out her opinion in a group. once you are really close to her you will realize what a fun fun person she was.. especially when she laugh…hahahhaa

why don’t you look this crisis and difficulty you are facing now at the positive side?

she is so dearly and very soft spoken. any guys who ever speak with her sure cant her off their mind…hehhehe.. I realize that we have go through one phase of life together.. that is how I felt though.. I can feel her sadness from times and so do she I guess.. anyway whatever it is thanks my friend.. it is definitely an immense wake up call for me as I have been thinking on something that I could never achieve. thinking about things that I could strive and achieve is my priority since then. I have so much more waiting for me. my dreams that I want to reach.. hope so one day.. africa here I come…hehhhe

someone just dosent worth it for you to cry for. you deserve so much better. what goes around comes around.

she is a friend that value friendship as everything. if there is anything happens, you can always count on her anytime. she is the one will be the mediator in any conflict do appears especially relationship matters..hhehhe..anyway, she is just a very wonderful and kind hearted friend of mine..

be patient and hope for the best of all. God had created everyone their other half and so do yours..

this friend of mine will always talks about the philosophy of life and us everyone will be amaze of how much mature she was than us all. she might appears as childish but her input of life is surely am awakening one for all without a doubt.

do you really have a dimple when you smile?

finally somebody do realizes that I really do do and do have a dimple when I smile. that is the very first time people do realizes that. even my family especially dad doesn’t want to admit that I have a dimple. ~sigh~~ and until now after the first somebody there is still no one telling me about my dimple.. maybe it had been disappear as I am gaining weight lately..huh~~ lost weight mission will be running soon..hehhee

do you miss me as I miss you? can you accept me?

oh! please help me how am I going to answer this??? if you at my place and had been going through this phase too you surely know how does it feels like right? it is truly a terrifying and hard one.. why? because it came from someone that your heart says no to. sooner or later I do have to answer so its better not to delay any second of it. for the better or worse I know what I want like the other one. but luckily all this going well and I did gave my answer. all the best for all!

why cant you just forget me and live happily?

be off with all the greetings and just let me live my life as you live yours! will I never be happy by not forgiving someone for the rest of life? in the time being I not able to forgive still and in the future, I don’t know. maybe yes, maybe not, or maybe I feel nothing about it. but for the mean time, I still can handle my emotion and I do feel fine and indeed content with my life now. I have grown up and doing things that I feel satisfied with. there is still people who appreciate me, care and love me, and most importantly I am independent and free.

history of life have the owner of its own

sorrow and happiness has been the utmost companion

and the main ingredient of life.

certain feelings and memories as it side dish

will always be there for us to ponder on.

don’t let it fade away

in going through the present and future.

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I am the owner of my own history of life~~~

p/s:

if one day, I do fall for that special one again, I will never change and sacrifice who I am and my root as I know what the best for me and I of course I will never do or act like it going to harm me or others. this is me you are seeing and in love with, so for the better or worse accept me the way I am as I do for you or else we just doesn’t fit together.